Today I made a sacrifice.
I spent the morning at one of my jobs working alone on a once-a-year project. My current favorite binge food was right there next to the computer.
Yesterday at OACF there was a prophetic word spoken that chains were being broken. I was at the altar before the Lord at the time, and I took this as a Rhema word for me. That the chains that held me prisoner to my stomach were being broken.
Yet here I was sitting at work 24 hours later with my go-to binge food at hand.
I started Grace and Strength back on July 26, 2-1/2 month ago. My first month in the program I lost over 20 pounds! Then the 2nd weekend in September, I took my eyes off Jesus and settled them on the waves (recent loss of husband, home, and worldly identity) and fell in. That resulted in an 11-pound weight gain in 2 days!
But Grace and Strength didn’t kick me out then . . .or today when I reported to my coach my struggles continue. I thank God for April.
I also felt God telling me to take the remains of my binge home and burn them on a sacrificial fire symbolizing my complete surrender of my will with regard to food. I felt led to pray “Father, from this point on, may I run to you the way I ran to this food today.” I didn’t add “Replace the pleasures derived from consuming this with a pleasant sensation or other good reason to do so.”
Then just a few minutes ago I heard Francis Chan speaking about a sin with which many Christians are judgmental. He lumped it together with all other sins as being a problem of lack of surrender. They way he stated everything absolutely made sense. He stated there may be something God asks us to do that we absolutely do not want to do. If we don’t do it, it is sin. We MUST do it. God is God and we are not.
So God brought everything back into perspective. My church’s tagline is “Church of a Second Chance” Thank God the word “Second” is just a word, and his mercies are new every morning—infinite.